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Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 17:26:52 GMT

Once I was a prisoner
lost inside myself
with the world surrounding me
wandering through the misery
but now I am free

You gave me a breath of life
unclouded my eyes
with a sweet serenity
lighting a ray of hope for me
and now I am free

Free to live
Free to laugh
Free to soar
Free to shine
Free to give
Free to love
Free enough to fly

Once I was so all alone
unsteady and cold
but your love rained down upon me
washing away uncertainty

But now
I am FREE!

written by: Mariah Carey

Dedicated to my Husband Barry Nowell

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 14:40:49 GMT

To Shana Elmore:

She brings sunshine wherever she goes

She is kind and loving

She is gentle and forgiving

Her hair is like spun gold from the story goldie locks

She is my niece

She is my teacher

She represents pureness and goodness

I love you Shana Elmore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 14:35:04 GMT

To Christopher Hathorn

He is my first born

He is my hopes and dreams

He is like a Whirling Dervish

His eye sparkle with a hint of devilish within them

His brain is brilliant, but he keeps it a secret

He lights up my world with his laughter

He is my son

He is growing up, he is becoming my son the Man.

I love you Chris!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 13:40:15 GMT

To My Husband:

His eyes are green like Mother earths grass that grows

His hair is like the spices salt and pepper

His heart is big like the mountains in Colorado

His mind is extraordinary

He is a inspiration to me

He is my rock

He is my heart

He is my Life!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you Barry Nowell!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 13:35:32 GMT

To Stephanie Anne Hathorn:

Her hair is light and shimmers with the suns glow

Her eyes are dark and complicated

She is my foundation

She is my Princess and I am her Queen

She is my light at the end of my darkest past

She is a powerful force

Her heart is connected

Her consistency is beautifull

She is my Stephanie!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 13:27:56 GMT

To Nichole Elmore,

Her eye are dark and powerful

Her hair is dark, long and thick

Her ways are quiet and powerful

Her talents are unNurtured

She walks with grace and beauty

Her name is Nichole.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 13:18:35 GMT

This was my first thought for today. When two hearts complete each other "he help me listen to the beat, I help him listen to the words" This is how two heart can complete each other.

I feel the wind flow over me, it is Mother Earth she is most powerful and sweet.

I feel the warm Sun upon my brow, this is Father Earth he fills me with inner peace .

I feel the ground under my feet, this is what make me feel safe, this is Mother and Father earth they cradle me and protect me.

I am grateful to my ancestor who keep me in their inner circle of love.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 18:10:33 GMT

My favorite song by SlipKnot:

I push my fingers into my eyes
Its the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But its made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works it's way inside
If the pain goes on...

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I’ve waited as my times elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I wished for this
I bitched at that
I’ve left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I’ve gotta say what I’ve gotta say and then I swear I'll go away
But I cant promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You are left with me cuz you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I’ve found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works it's way inside
If the pain goes on
I’m not gonna make it!

All I’ve got
All I’ve got Is Insane
All I’ve got
All I’ve got Is Insane
All I’ve got!
All I’ve got Is Insane!
All I’ve got!
All I’ve got Is Insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works it's way inside
If the pain goes on
I’m not gonna make it

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 18:04:08 GMT

I feel so much older now than then,
But I still sense a childish splendor when I feel the Autumn wind.
It reminds me of hours of play gone by,
and a million unanswered questions of how and why?
I think of friends that I have known and lost,
and of all the bridges that I have burned and crossed.
If we could only stay as children and never learn to hate,
or know the sorrow of finding something out when it was too late.
Yes, I do feel much older now than then,
But I thank God for the splendor I feel in the Autumn wind.

Monday, August 15, 2005

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 19:40:13 GMT

Aunt Julie I love you.

<3 Nichole.